We are never really sure of why we live until we are tested. This difficult time has tested me in a way that is truly oppressive. I cannot sleep well and my body is aging more rapidly now. I believe more than ever, that my sense of morality is far more important than anything or anybody. I am a Catholic with an atheist philosophy. Sounds crazy doesn't it?
Yet Catholicism has given me a strong moral sense despite the fact that it has also given me the burden of a nonsensical after life. More than ever, I believe we die and that's it. Jesus was so right on so many issues but so wrong about death and heaven. We are no more valuable to this universe than a leaf or a flower or a bird or a fish. And it is exactly that, the essence of being true to oneself that is the most valuable. If, after all, we finally come to the realization that no one human being can live forever, we are free to explore the possibilities. It is only then that we truly appreciate the value of a bird or a flower or a tree. It is only then that we realize how closely tied to the earth we will always be. By accepting the true nature of our mortal existence, we are able to see the amazing value of ordinary life.
That is why I am determined to fight for the right side of morality while I am still breathing. I am determined to make sure everyone knows where our destiny has lead us. That destiny is a clean and secure future with a growing middle class and a more responsive government. It may take a revolution. It may take some kind of catastrophic natural event. It may take some kind of damning revelation about the privileged classes. But this log jam we are currently experiencing is a direct result of my boomer generation expressing its ignorance. As we relinquish control to more progressive forces, the tide will finally flow as it should.
In the process we must proclaim today's notion of conservatism to be false. We must make people realize that what is passing for conservatism is thinly veiled regression. The Tea Party is dominated by backward thinking bigots. And we must expose them for what they are. Real conservatives like Teddy Roosevelt and Dwight Eisenhower are a stark contrast to cartoon figures like Ted Cruz and Joe McCarthy. Brilliant conservatives like David Brooks will only become powerful when the radical elements are run out of the party. When George Bush ran for the nomination in 1980 he knew that he must disavow the actions of the John Birch society. Every time they take over the Republican Party, they damage the party and the country. Unfortunately, Newt Gingrich brought them back when he teamed up with the Christian Right and a generation of dirty politics was born. Since Newt, the politics of the party trumps the best interests of the U.S. Citizen.